Today is the day...

Today is the day that first born becomes a senior. Still unbelievable to me that even though I have watched all these kids through the years leave--it was really hard to believe that it would happen to me. I desire to not be one of those moms that counts down the days as in...."this is the last...." The emotion involved with all of that seems too much for me. I was anticipating stuffing them all in. I think that's what I usually do. 2nd daughter asked yesterday before the candle lighting ceremony..."mom are you going to cry?" I said emphatically "no." But, something happened that I didn't expect. 1st dd received an unanticipated award--for academic excellence and achievement in Comparative Government. Then it happened.....I cried. Not because of the candle lighting ceremony but because this child--that learning has been so difficult for--received an ACADEMIC award---her junior year. And then the waterworks were turned on and I had to fight really hard to keep them in even during the candle lighting. 1st born excels at fine arts--not necessarily academics but the fact that she tried really hard and someone else recognized her achievement....which was a much greater achievement than those that academia comes easily to. So, she lit her candle....and Bri blew hers out. They hugged and then the new seniors were commissioned.